I’ve always been extremely raw about my actions. Rather, I’ve had no choice so far; it’s really hard for me resist the urge to tell the person that I’ve been thinking intensely about this and that about his/her attractiveness, admirable qualities, talents, work, etc. Often times, I just write letters to them and be done with, because my words to them aren’t necessarily up for a discussion. Just one-sided feeling at the moment. Pleasant returns come to me often, but there have been heartbreaks. I still haven’t built fear, though, because I don’t expect any “results.” I just live em…then continue living with no regrets, just some awfully wounded heart in the case of heartbreak.
I read this article some people shared on Facebook.
Am I really a rare kind? This contributor also took a leap and told the “truth” but I don’t even wait. I just do it. However, I feel like I am this way for a few cultural reasons.
1. In Japan, there’s a word called “kokuhaku” meaning “confession” most often used as the occasion of telling someone you like him/her. You explicitly say, “I like you.” And it’s intense -the answer is, yes or no. Perhaps I just brought this idea along with me to America, and I expanded into non-romantic settings, too.
2. I never ever watch tv or hardly any movies, since I was little. I just had no interest/ patience to sit in front of a screen being passively listening. I’ve been feeling frustrated by this behavior of mine because I think it’s caused me to know nothing about what’s going on in the world, and lack common sense, even. But then, this is probably why I’m saved from acting within the norm of modern social interactions, which are represented in pop-cultural doctrines.